Friday, November 14, 2008

曖昧不是愛情 ……

你们认识很久,你满心欢喜,你开始心怀期待,就连做梦都会笑出来,可是他就是什么也不说,你对自己说等等再等等,直到有一天你看到他身边有了另一个身影,你震惊"不是...这是....我是.....?"


在朋友眼里你们很登对,每次聚会他做你的护花使者责无旁贷,你也发现自己对他有了些些的依赖,朋友关于你们之间无伤大雅的玩笑让你觉得很甜蜜。就在你以为一切都将水到渠成的时候睛 天霹雳,他说他从没对你有过这种想法他说这是你的误会。

你呆住了"误会?.....竟...竟然是...误会.....?"

伤心吗?难过吗?痛苦吗?只是,只是谁让你把暧昧当爱情呢?

这是个暧昧横行的年代,感情出现的第三个种类,比友情深比爱情浅,游走于二者的边缘这就是暧昧,是什么时候开始本应是明明朗朗的爱情成了一场麓战,谁先动心谁就满盘皆输万劫不复。是谁把简单复杂化……

其实说穿了
暧昧,是可以推脱责任的游戏,没有承诺就无需负责;

暧昧,是勇敢者的游戏,无畏的人才能在角逐中进退自如;

如果你没有铁石铸就的心肠做软胃甲,那么你就别拿暧昧当爱情...

暧昧是,比好朋友再亲一点,但比情人远一点。

暧昧是, 有感觉,然而,这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。

暧昧是, 明白人生有太多的无奈,现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能,但又舍不得放手

暧昧是, 有进一步的冲动,却没有进一步的勇气

暧昧是,他不是你的情人,但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你

暧昧是,别人问你们是否恋爱中,你张口结舌。

暧昧是,常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后,你既得不到一个情人,却又失去了一个知心好友。

暧昧是,两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么?我是不是自作多情

暧昧是,两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此,你愿意付出的,比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任,但你却很渴望去承担,不问回报。

暧昧是,一扇门,你可以停留在门外,也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门――永远不是终点站

但,曖昧始终不是爱情。两个人再如何得好也不要改变既定的和谐,也别幻想着角色的转换,否则只有痛苦和失望。如果未曾蒙面的话,就更不该冒这个险了!就把 它当作一种友谊,好好的放在保温箱里,给它取个动人的名字叫曖昧。爱昧是你看到这篇文章,会想到的那个人!我们曖昧,我们却不属于对方……有些失去是注定 的,有些缘分是永远不会有结果的。确认世间有这么一种情愫,介于友情和爱情之间,它是真正的不能说,一说就错所以我们都选择了没有开始的永不结。

Thursday, November 06, 2008

可惜……

是……这是我的决定……我没有后悔过……但我又觉得可惜……为何会这样?

朋友纷纷地告诉我中六检定考试要到了……全部都很压力……我告诉他们……我已经没有这个机会考了……突然……他们又告诉我……我的名字依然有在……毕竟已经报考了嘛……

我想……考试那天……我的位子……应该是空着的吧……我有一种……一种奇妙的感觉……也许……我只能用可惜来形容这个感觉……

我有一股冲动想回去考试……但……之后又想了想……我还是不回去吧……因为……我将会气死校长……因为把全校成绩拉低……哈哈……

但我敢肯定……这条路是我选的……我没后悔……

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Stress...stress...stress!!

What am i doing now? I dunno...

What i know is...exam is coming very very soon!! Argh....

I m going mad...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

过去了……

终于……都过去了……感觉好轻松……好开心……

下次请你别这样了……我真的好担心……担心你真的离开了……

我会永远爱你……

Sunday, October 19, 2008

害怕……

昨天,我接了一通妹妹打来的电话……

我感到好害怕……我好害怕会失去他……到底它发生了什么事?怎么突然会有这样的反应……

我不希望他在我生命中就这样走了……我好想见他……可是我现在身不由己……我只能默默的哭泣……

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Life...

Sometimes…I am really happy and enjoy my life…but sometimes…I feel lonely although my friends are around me…

I feel like my life…still lack of something…but I don’t know what is that…

Recently…many things happened…I entered a competition…that…can train my confident…but…I still have not enough confident in myself…why?

Why I can’t be like them? No need to worry about this and that…and feel scared…why am I worry so much?

After the competition…I also don’t know who I am anymore…I feel that that is not me…and…I am different…still…if I still in the old version of me…I couldn’t survive I think…

This doesn’t mean that I am doing a drama…just…being a trainee…I need to be have more confident in myself…

I am happy that I have a great roommate…if compared to some friends…I don’t know whether I am a good roommate…but…she is really a good roommate…my friends here…also very nice…just maybe we know each other only for about a few months…still can’t be like ‘old’ friends…

I hope one day…they will be my ‘old’ friends…

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Feeling...weird...

After finish my assignments and presentations...i have a weird feeling...

Exam is coming...very soon...haha...now i think is the time i manage my time and start study...

From where am i going to start my study? Opss...i almost forget how to study...coz...honestly...i enjoy too much...

Is it a very bad thing? Ohno...thats why i said...i have changed...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

It comes slowly...

I enjoy too much since middle of July....

Now...the stress...comes slowly...slowly....so scary...

Exam is coming soon...i don't even read a word yet...because...assignments...

I hope that i can finish my assignments smoothly n start study!!

Ahhhh......

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Tired...

Yes...i m so tired...assignments? not really...busy playing? maybe....

I can't sleep early...just that...i feel not worth to do so...i found that myself has changed...better? or worsen? ermm...50-50...

I wanted to cry...but...i can't...can someone tell me how to continue my life?

Monday, October 06, 2008

My life?

Finally...i am here again...i don't know why i am here again...just...maybe...some reasons for me to be here...again...

I left my blog for almost one year...since...december'07...Wow...soooo long...many things in my life had changed...at first...i can't really accept it...now...i can say...i love my life...even though i dislike my life...i also have to accept it...and also try to love it...and...i make it...

Although i miss my so called 'old' friends...but still...i get to know many many new friends...the feeling is...weird...is hard to describe...i can't imagine how much i miss my friends...today...tomorrow...next year...i hope that my friends will be with me forever...it sounds bad...but...honestly...this is how i feel...i know that this is impossible...one day...my friends will left me...one by one...n they are searching for their new friends...and new life...just like i left my friends months ago...i don't know how they feel...i feel guilty for doing so...but...what else can i do?

I know i go for the sake of my future...3 months ago...i left them...some of them wish me luck...but some...don't really want me to go...because they feel that is not worth...to me...i have no choice...sorry...my dear friend...i have make my choice...how bout u?