Tuesday, October 21, 2008

过去了……

终于……都过去了……感觉好轻松……好开心……

下次请你别这样了……我真的好担心……担心你真的离开了……

我会永远爱你……

Sunday, October 19, 2008

害怕……

昨天,我接了一通妹妹打来的电话……

我感到好害怕……我好害怕会失去他……到底它发生了什么事?怎么突然会有这样的反应……

我不希望他在我生命中就这样走了……我好想见他……可是我现在身不由己……我只能默默的哭泣……

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Life...

Sometimes…I am really happy and enjoy my life…but sometimes…I feel lonely although my friends are around me…

I feel like my life…still lack of something…but I don’t know what is that…

Recently…many things happened…I entered a competition…that…can train my confident…but…I still have not enough confident in myself…why?

Why I can’t be like them? No need to worry about this and that…and feel scared…why am I worry so much?

After the competition…I also don’t know who I am anymore…I feel that that is not me…and…I am different…still…if I still in the old version of me…I couldn’t survive I think…

This doesn’t mean that I am doing a drama…just…being a trainee…I need to be have more confident in myself…

I am happy that I have a great roommate…if compared to some friends…I don’t know whether I am a good roommate…but…she is really a good roommate…my friends here…also very nice…just maybe we know each other only for about a few months…still can’t be like ‘old’ friends…

I hope one day…they will be my ‘old’ friends…

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Feeling...weird...

After finish my assignments and presentations...i have a weird feeling...

Exam is coming...very soon...haha...now i think is the time i manage my time and start study...

From where am i going to start my study? Opss...i almost forget how to study...coz...honestly...i enjoy too much...

Is it a very bad thing? Ohno...thats why i said...i have changed...

Sunday, October 12, 2008

It comes slowly...

I enjoy too much since middle of July....

Now...the stress...comes slowly...slowly....so scary...

Exam is coming soon...i don't even read a word yet...because...assignments...

I hope that i can finish my assignments smoothly n start study!!

Ahhhh......

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Tired...

Yes...i m so tired...assignments? not really...busy playing? maybe....

I can't sleep early...just that...i feel not worth to do so...i found that myself has changed...better? or worsen? ermm...50-50...

I wanted to cry...but...i can't...can someone tell me how to continue my life?

Monday, October 06, 2008

My life?

Finally...i am here again...i don't know why i am here again...just...maybe...some reasons for me to be here...again...

I left my blog for almost one year...since...december'07...Wow...soooo long...many things in my life had changed...at first...i can't really accept it...now...i can say...i love my life...even though i dislike my life...i also have to accept it...and also try to love it...and...i make it...

Although i miss my so called 'old' friends...but still...i get to know many many new friends...the feeling is...weird...is hard to describe...i can't imagine how much i miss my friends...today...tomorrow...next year...i hope that my friends will be with me forever...it sounds bad...but...honestly...this is how i feel...i know that this is impossible...one day...my friends will left me...one by one...n they are searching for their new friends...and new life...just like i left my friends months ago...i don't know how they feel...i feel guilty for doing so...but...what else can i do?

I know i go for the sake of my future...3 months ago...i left them...some of them wish me luck...but some...don't really want me to go...because they feel that is not worth...to me...i have no choice...sorry...my dear friend...i have make my choice...how bout u?