过去了……

终于……都过去了……感觉好轻松……好开心……

下次请你别这样了……我真的好担心……担心你真的离开了……

我会永远爱你……

害怕……

昨天，我接了一通妹妹打来的电话……

我感到好害怕……我好害怕会失去他……到底它发生了什么事？怎么突然会有这样的反应……

我不希望他在我生命中就这样走了……我好想见他……可是我现在身不由己……我只能默默的哭泣……

Life...

Sometimes…I am really happy and enjoy my life…but sometimes…I feel lonely although my friends are around me…

I feel like my life…still lack of something…but I don’t know what is that…

Recently…many things happened…I entered a competition…that…can train my confident…but…I still have not enough confident in myself…why?

Why I can’t be like them? No need to worry about this and that…and feel scared…why am I worry so much?

After the competition…I also don’t know who I am anymore…I feel that that is not me…and…I am different…still…if I still in the old version of me…I couldn’t survive I think…

This doesn’t mean that I am doing a drama…just…being a trainee…I need to be have more confident in myself…

I am happy that I have a great roommate…if compared to some friends…I don’t know whether I am a good roommate…but…she is really a good roommate…my friends here…also very nice…just maybe we know each other only for about a few months…still can’t be like ‘old’ friends…

I hope one day…they will be my ‘old’ friends…

Feeling...weird...

After finish my assignments and presentations...i have a weird feeling...

Exam is coming...very soon...haha...now i think is the time i manage my time and start study...

From where am i going to start my study? Opss...i almost forget how to study...coz...honestly...i enjoy too much...

Is it a very bad thing? Ohno...thats why i said...i have changed...

It comes slowly...

I enjoy too much since middle of July....

Now...the stress...comes slowly...slowly....so scary...

Exam is coming soon...i don't even read a word yet...because...assignments...

I hope that i can finish my assignments smoothly n start study!!

Ahhhh......

Tired...

Yes...i m so tired...assignments? not really...busy playing? maybe....

I can't sleep early...just that...i feel not worth to do so...i found that myself has changed...better? or worsen? ermm...50-50...

I wanted to cry...but...i can't...can someone tell me how to continue my life?

My life?

Finally...i am here again...i don't know why i am here again...just...maybe...some reasons for me to be here...again...

I left my blog for almost one year...since...december'07...Wow...soooo long...many things in my life had changed...at first...i can't really accept it...now...i can say...i love my life...even though i dislike my life...i also have to accept it...and also try to love it...and...i make it...

Although i miss my so called 'old' friends...but still...i get to know many many new friends...the feeling is...weird...is hard to describe...i can't imagine how much i miss my friends...today...tomorrow...next year...i hope that my friends will be with me forever...it sounds bad...but...honestly...this is how i feel...i know that this is impossible...one day...my friends will left me...one by one...n they are searching for their new friends...and new life...just like i left my friends months ago...i don't know how they feel...i feel guilty for doing so...but...what else can i do?

I know i go for the sake of my future...3 months ago...i left them...some of them wish me luck...but some...don't really want me to go...because they feel that is not worth...to me...i have no choice...sorry...my dear friend...i have make my choice...how bout u?

WHY??

为什么我长得越大……烦恼就越多……

为什么人总是有那么多的意见？

为什么人人都要我们去配合他们？

为什么你总是认为自己永远是对的？

为什么你就不能体谅别人？

为什么我要因为你而改变大局？

为什么你就不能站在我的立场想想吗？

我快要崩溃了……

但我知道我不能这样……

我一定要撑下去……

我好希望你在我生活中……永远消失……

Do u believe in miracle?

YES? or NO?

My answer is...YES...

对不起……谢谢你……

谢谢你的爱
谢谢你的耐心
谢谢你所带给我的欢乐
谢谢你一直以来的陪伴
谢谢你一直以来的的付出
谢谢你点亮了我的生命
谢谢你在我生命中停留了一段日子
谢谢你让我体会到别人得不到的经验
谢谢你所带给我的一切……一切……

对不起……我错了……
我误会你了……
不管我怎么骂你……
对你发脾气……
你也不反抗……
你也不回手……
你更不把他放在心上……

现在……我知道了……
我很心疼……
我很伤心……
对不起……
我之前应该多关心你……
而不是骂你，更不应该打你……
我不应该把你带回来……
对不起，我错了……
我好想让你听到我的道歉……
但我知道一切都一太迟了……太迟了……

我已做了这么一个决定……
这对你可说是最好的办法……
我非常非常的舍不得你……
我好希望你能留在我身边……
像以前那样…
可是我不想让你再辛苦下去……
我就做了这么一个决定……
我很心疼……

我真的……很舍不得你……
我会永远……永远……的祝福你……

Oh my God...

I know she is a good friend sometimes…
I know she think that I have changed…
I know she know that some people hate her…
I know she dislike somebody very much…
I know she is so sensitive…

I dunno how to tolerate with her…
I dunno what to do with her…
I dunno what’s wrong with her…
I dunno what will happen next to her…

I wanna shout at her in front of everyone …
I wanna slap her…
I wanna walk out of her life…

I don’t care what she think of me…
I don’t care how she describe me…
I don’t care if everybody hate her…
I don’t care if she still wanna be friend with me…

I am fed up with her…
I am not who I am anymore…

Tagged...

Tagged by Iwan loooooooong time ago....

5 things found in my bag
- purse
- handphone
- tissue
- comb
- medicine(like panadol…)

5 things found in your wallet
- money
- identity card
- driving license
- cards (like popular n union card, optical centre + some business cards…)
- photos (mine + my family)

5 favourite things in your room
- my collection (like stamps…)
- my bed
- my letters
- souvenirs
- gifts from my friends

5 things you’ve always wanted to do
- successfully bake a fruit cake
- get a complete set of baking stuff
- get a complete set of sushi making stuff
- buy a laptop
- change my handphone

5 things you’re currently into
- start my new life in form 6
- card making
- going mad with my looong hair
- my busy life – tuition…
- make new friends(from other schools)

5 person that you tagged
- nobody la...

Tagged again n again...^^

I was tagged by "nice" Nard Ge Ge...


INSTRUCTION : Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone.Then, stab 3 people to do the same test..

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I'm totally smart.
11) I've broken someone's bones.
12) I'm paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I'm always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don't hate anyone.
35) I'm a pretty good dancer.
36) I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone..
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I've rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I've called the cops on a friend before.
46) I'm not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I'm obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal dream.
69) I'm proficient in an musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can't live without black eyeliner.
79) I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I've written in.
86) I can't stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I'm an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.


I wanna tag Min Jia and Wei Hern only...

50-50

I am confused…

The teacher and the president of Buddha Society year 06/07 want me to be the president of year 07/08…what can I do? Accept? Refuse?

Buddha Society is not the same as other society…because…we have ‘shi fu’ (师父)…we can’t simply plan the activities that we want but we have to plan something according to Buddha taught…this is the main problem…for example…if I am the president of English Society…I can plan any activities that I want (I can plan n do what I want because I am the president)…but if I am the president of Buddha Society(I have to follow their plan…don’t want to follow also can…but…to me is like ‘derhaka’…actually i dunno how to reject someone's ideas...expecially shi fu's n teacher's ideas..)…

I am under stress…I have no confident actually…but I will try my best…

Hmm...

就在刚才……我受到了他（已和我相处了两年的朋友）的信息……他告诉我……他得matrikulasi了……明天就要去了……我当时的心情就是非常非常得难受……我的心好痛……好像失去某种东西的感觉……很无助……

我想了整个下午……心情很差……我为了不让父母知道我的心情……就一个人躲在房间里……借口是看故事书……就在那个时候……我想了好多好多东西……哭也哭过了……我也已接受了这个现实……“人总是要接受现实的……虽然很痛……但一下子就会过去了……”这句是我从一部电视剧的对白学到的……觉得他讲得也有道理……一直都记在心里……

也在这个时候……我发现我一直都依赖着他……想了整个下午……我也相通了……我也很清楚我下一步要怎么走下去……

Orientation Day...

Orientation Day – great!

I reached school at about 7am…I looked around…none of them wearing t-shirt(means they are not form 6 students)…I seemed like an ‘alien’ walking around the school seeking for another ‘alien’..haha…only at about 7.15am I saw another ‘alien’…huhh…am I too early?

After that was ice breaking. At first, there were only 6 people(including me) in my group…kesian…then 3 people come and join my group…group’s name is ‘wu xian’(unlimited)…yen yen and xiang wei same group with me…

There was a game that we have to search something (symbol, drawing or words) that can be found in our school compound…only that I know that there are many things that I dunno or didn’t even realize although I study in this school for 5 years!! Aiks..aiks…

Then was station game where we need cooperation…one of the game that remain ‘geli’ in my mind is we have to eat something look and taste geli (mixture of banana, milo and water)..imagine that…we have to use the straw to suck the ‘things’…actually the taste is not that bad…but the colour is sooo geli…yuck…

What a great experience!!

Second day in school...

I am in L6S2…

There is only 26 students in my class…yeah…I like this…I hope the school won’t combine L6S1 n S2…

My class teacher is…is…is…Mr. …..(5A1’06 class teacher!!) omg!!

Mr. Teoh : Your class teacher is Mr….

L6S2 students : Harrrrrrrrrrr…..!!

Let me introduce to u my classmates…

Emm…shy chyi, khuan ning, lip pang, kok jie, jane ying, xin tian, nicholas, bai qin, cheng you, boon khai, hooi ann, cindy, wan li, sue lyn, kar suan, kooi shen, kang ding, wei yuan, shi mei…the rest…I m not very sure, some of then are from other schools…

Tomorrow is orientation day!! Yeah!!

Tagged again...=)

When I saw the word ‘tagged’ in lene’s blog…then I know…I wanna cekek lene…nyeknyeknyek…

*Actually I wanna post this earlier..but…when I type till the word ‘purse’…suddenly...
'toc'…black out…so sui…haiz…

5 things found in my bag
- purse
- handphone
- tissue
- comb
- medicine(like panadol…)

5 things found in your wallet
- money
- identity card
- driving license
- cards (like popular n union card, optical centre + some business cards…)
- photos (mine + my family)

5 favourite things in your room
- my collection (like stamps…)
- my bed
- my letters
- souvenirs
- gifts from my friends

5 things you’ve always wanted to do
- successfully bake a fruit cake
- get a complete set of baking stuff
- get a complete set of sushi making stuff
- buy a laptop
- change my handphone

5 things you’re currently into
- start my new life in form 6
- card making
- going mad with my looong hair
- my busy life – tuition…
- make new friends(from other schools)

5 person that you tagged
- nobody la...

lene...i m waiting...

My brand new life...

My new life had just started…

I wake up at 6am in the morning…the first thing…bath! Then bla bla…including tie my hair (hehe..susahnye..the first time I tie my hair b4 going to school mer..=.=) I thought I can done everything in 30 minutes…but…aiya…the time is already 6.30am n I still haven’t come my hair, wear my shoes, tie n …I have to go out early because my dad is the driver…if not… dad might be late to school (kesian…=.=)…I panicked…no choice liao ar…take my rubber band, ribbon as well as comb(most important…) n also my shoes…reach school…my first destination - school toilet!! Haha…

At about 7am…done!! Go to the front of my school hall…to see whether chyi was already there…saw xinyi n zi yang(chua)…about 5 minutes later…saw chyi with her untied hair…

‘ping! Give me the rubber band!! No time liao…quick…go to the toilet(toilet again…=.=)!’

7.30am…we all gathered in school hall…there are students from keat hwa II and Sharifah Roziah…I choose biology class…I will die if continue study physic…hehe…

Really loooong briefing….damn boring…but quite useful…hehe…

Thats all…

U all(my x classmate) wanna know who I saw today?

*wan yen, woan chin, wan teng, xiang wei, shu jou, khuan ning, chu siang, kok jie, ching ying, xiao wei, jia xin, wan li, jane ying, elisabeth, xinyi, zhi sheng, lip pang, ying ying, xin tian, hooi ann, hooi ling, jin xuan, zi hong…I think is enough ady la hor…=)

To be continue…

i m a fortune teller..haha...

农历二十三日生
此日生人，心境常换，作事不定，多变多变，易与争斗勤励事业，矫正缺点，衣禄有馀，中年平平未运福到，荣华富贵，平安之命

28日出生的我。。
韧性很强，拥有战胜困难的力量。这天出生的女性，常给人一种妖艳的印象。

你富有幻想力，好玩，喜欢寻求刺激，表达能力很强。你魅力过人，身边不会缺少朋友和裙下之臣，有时会因兴奋过度而态度嚣张，喜好得失通常在朋友间都会以玩笑的态度打圆场。你妒忌心颇重，但通常是在男友的故意挑剔下表现出来，你喜欢运动型和富有艺术感的男性。

最匹配的星座：白羊座，狮子座，射手座

最佳男伴生日：3，12，21，30。