Forced

when you are forced to do something you don't like
it feel bad
it is torturing
and yet it wont bring satisfactions

so why not try to like it?
yes, i should like it
slowly...

Letting go...

Letting go is one of the hardest lessons in life.

In life, there's many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.

It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.

However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path.

Letting go of your past and memories are also extremely hard. Even though old memories can be tormenting, yet you might hold on to the past and refuse to move forward. However, by refusing to let go of the painful past, it'll serve as a roadblock to love.

Letting go of your old self and the process of letting the new you emerge can be one of the scariest experiences in your life. But by leaving behind your old self and taking a leap of faith into the unknown, it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming.

Friends?

There are many types of friends
Some dare not to hurt u,
coz he/she scared u don't want to be friend with him/her anymore.

Some will just say what he/she feel,
didn't think twice when say something to u,
but sometimes their words hurt.

which kind of friend do u prefer?

上了大学才知道……

两个天天在一起的人不一定是朋友，有可能什么都不是。
从来不要和别人争论什么，因为那是没有结果的，无论谁对谁错。
手机是有事的时候用的，并不是为了交流感情。
真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的。
很多东西是可遇而不可求的，很多东西你只能拥有一次。
原来中学老师教的是那么好，那么负责任。
生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。
人的性格可以差异到如此之大。
课程会在你不经意间，拉下很多，期末考试前不一定能补回来。
钱用的是那么快，用钱的地方是那么多。
从现在开始应该把握每一个你能把握的人，放弃你留不住的人，不要因为想留住个别人而失去一群人。
自己一定在乎自己的自尊，因为你的自尊在别人眼里根本不算什么。
会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱咋整随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。
太在乎别人了往往会伤害自己。
可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不能把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。
玩你能玩的起的，玩不起的千万别玩，不然会输的什么都没有的。
快乐常常来自回忆，而痛苦常常来自于回忆与现实的差距。
每个人都是带有“地方特色”的。
每个人都是认为自己的家乡最好，无论他的家乡贫穷或富裕。

Escape

Today, my mum told me something
which i can't accept it
i knew it since years ago
i thought myself already accept it
but
actually
i CAN'T
when i think of it
tears are running in my eyes
i hope that it was not true
i know
i will know it one day
now
i need time to accept it
please give me some time

what happened to u, my dear friend?

i'm proud to have u as my best friend
thanks for your sharing
although i can't really read your mind
friend, i hope that you will be happy
no matter what happened
i will always be there for u
good luck to u~

Think...

When something out of our expectations happened, we will shock? happy? sad? cry? laugh? n bla bla bla...no matter we like it or not, it was already happened.

The problem is can we accept it with a smile? Or...Oh my God! why? why like this..why like that? If i...if i know...what? Regret? There is no 'if' in this realistic world...

How we think? positie? negative? i'm a negative thinker. i want to change. i tried but i failed. hah. lousy me. Is it think positively will make me a happier person? i dont know. since i failed to think..positive.hah. why is it so hard to change our thinking. the way we think. is it really bad to be a negative thinker?

I'm back!

I visited someone's blog today..know him more than one year but we dont even talk more than 10 words i think. haha..(sure u will laugh at me when u see this. haha.)

It was a long way since i start blogging. But i seldom blog. It depends on my mood. Sometimes i am too lazy to update it. haha..I finished my foundation in teaching. It was fast and great. Gone through many things, many incidents that i havnt met before..so who am i now? haha..

Next sem will be a tough one. I think so. BIG..SPE..are lining up behind me. No matter i like it or not, i have to go through it. Will be back to campus next week..happy or sad? haha..both..

我错了吗？

一直以来，我都以为只要做回自己，自己快乐，朋友也快乐。身边的朋友不必隐瞒什么，只要真心对待就好。

可是现在我才发现，做回自己有时候反而会给人家觉得太直接，无形中伤害了他人，自己都不知道。我错了吗？

what else can i say?

I am speechless. Feeling disappointed.

regret...

I hate the feeling of regret..I shouldn't have make the wrong decision..What else can I say? It is already too late..

Should I tell her honestly? I am an irresponsible person?

I don't have the mood to attend. I am not happy with it...and..I hate it..

What should I do? Accept? Reject? Find Excuses?

The day is coming soon..very very soon! I have to decide!

try this

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Disappointed...

Thought that I can go home this weekend...
I need a rest before final exam..
But the reality seems to disappoint me..
Why?
Everytime when i put too much hope on something, it will disappoint me finally..

I want to go home......

sometimes

Sometimes, it is hard. When someone don't understand you. You showed your attitude, but yet, she can't catch it.

Someone keep on 'following' me these days. Oops..not days, is months! Feeling very frustrated. But yet, i don't know how to reject. I scared she get hurt. Someone that is too good to be reject. Then how? This is not called friendship, is called sympathize. I felt sympathy on her and that's why i'm scared to reject.

When she appeared in front of me, my mood changed immediately. I become down, feeling don't want to talk much. Why? Why I can change so fast because of someone?
Is not fair to me right? I can't stop her from appearing in front of me everyday. She is too 'close' to me. I can't stop her from following me!

She is disturbing my life. So much! Because of her, I almost neglected my friends. Why? That's why I said sometimes friendship problems can be much more worse than relationship problems. I don't want my life to be like that. But I don't know how to get rid of her! You can't force me to be so good with you! You are so annoying!

it is so unbelieveable!!

how you feel about yourself now:
You feel confused, vulnerable and full of doubts, however, all is not as it seems.

what you most want at this moment:
what you most want at this time is for a secret to be revealed, a secret held deep within yourself or another?

your fears:
Ones heart is ruling ones head! You are so afraid of being hurt you are paralysed into non-action. To have or not to have? To stay or to go?

what is going for you:
Call it fate or destiny but the run of good luck or good fortune you are experiencing or about to experience is mostly not of your doing - enjoy this time.

what is going against you:
Life will seem hectic and full of challenges and you will find it hard to have the right perspective on things.

outcome:
Success, fulfillment and conclusion are near at hand - the successful outcome to a venture, satisfaction in a relationship and efforts rewarded.

i'm like the idiot...

i'm like the idiot knowing nothing...

i shouldn't care so much..

all this end with disappointment..

i purposely do that.

I can’t continue with my assignments. I realized many things had happened around me. Everything has changed. Everyone also has changed. Me? Am I different from before?

You are my friend since years ago. But, seems like I don’t know you now. You are so different. I purposely do that. Feel embarrassed? I don’t care. You is the one who give me the chance to do it. I want you to know and to show it to you that I am no longer the former me. I have changed. Changed to the bad? Maybe. Who knows? Anyone know?

谁？

一个一直都在你身边的人，可是却永远不会属于你，这才是真正的痛苦……

执着……

很多人告诉我他很执着，可是，我不了解……

当我真正遇上了……我终于了解了……

执着是固执的结果吗？

为什么会执着呢？

不甘心？放不下？

我真的那么执着吗？

为什么会这样？

我选择，慢慢放下……

lots of thoughts...

First..printer..i need u to be alive...please..i need u so much now...

Second..i can go to bed now..but yet..i don't want to..why?

Third..there are too many things in my mind now..i feel uneasy..

Fourth..i found myself changed..and i m happy and also sad with it...is this a good thing?

Fifth..will be going home soon...very soon..but i am not really happy..again..why?

Sixth..someone irks me today...she borrowed something from me since last sem..but i didnt realise it..and she just keep quiet..i feel so disappointed on her..i dont think she want to give it back to me if i didnt ask for it..she thought that was hers..i feel really really disappointed on her..i dont know whether she know that i knew it already..but i will pretend like i know nothing..and i wont ask for it...i will just keep quiet and see when will she return it to me..but honestly..i dont think she will return it to me again..so..if somedays u irks me again..u will taste it soon! dont u ever try to play with me!

Seventh..why is it so hard to tolerate with u?

Eight..why i just cant let go?

The end.