面子……

我知道，我很在意自己的面子
但是
我才知道，我是多么的在意

一些事情
让我很伤心
面子有那么重要吗？

有人说
不要在意别人怎样看
做自己想做的就对了
可是我做不到
做着自己想要的
可是
我还是很在意

Delete...

I can delete everything
but
i cant delete something in my mind

it is already embedded in my mind
since..i'm not sure when

but now
i wish i can delete it

i can't
unless
i lost my memory...

不在乎……

不知道什么时候
我变得那么不在乎

为何要在乎那么多
你是谁
你不需要我的在乎
你只需要他的在乎

问也不问多一句
写也不所写一些
就是不想在乎
就是不想关心

到底我要什么？

Yes i can!

Yesterday
was a miracle

i will step out
very soon
add oil to myself...

Will you still find me if I stop disturbing you?

I found this post from my friend's fb status
Someone flashed across my mind
In my guess, the answer is NO...

I deleted almost everything
I thrown almost everything
I hide it from my sight
What i can't delete is..our memories..
Which embedded in my mind for a long time ago..till now...

Will you still find me if I stop disturbing you?
Will you still find me if didn't borrow something from you?
Will you still find me if I have nothing to give you?
Will you still find me FOR NOTHING?

Shontelle Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

a simple answer

a simple answer
makes me think twice
even more than twice

what is your hidden answer?

same..

days passed
but it is still the same

Yea...

Don't know why
Today,
I'm really happy.
Will tomorrow be the same like today?

Friends,
I love u all very much..

If you LOVE something

If you love something
let It be free
to decide
whether to come
or to go

If It comes to you
It loves you too
Accept it, with an open heart

If It goes away
It does not want to hurt you
Accept it too
but not with a broken heart

I hate myself

I thought i let go already
but actually
I just don't think of it for a moment

Seems like I can't let go forever
Why am I think like that
Why I can't change my mind
Why I can't control myself

I hate the word let go
It always appear in my mind yet i can't do it
I hate it!

I'm too late

I'm too late
to realise it

You're always by my side
but i didn't appreciate it

You won't stop me from doing anything
you give me the freedom
still i didn't appreciate it

You care for me
but i didn't realise

In these years
I thought myself hate u
but actually
I love you very much...

Alone

I saw you walking alone
I feel pity on you
I hope that you are not alone

Maybe
I should accompany you

But
Some feelings stopped me

Will it continue like this?
Or there may be some changes one day...

无言

如果不说
就肯定一辈子都是朋友
但是如果说了
随时连朋友也做不成

Time

Time pass so fast
3rd week is going to end soon
i don't know why
i start to love this semester

No more stress like before
is that me?
i can't believe that!

Looking forward for our class trip
it's great

Maybe because of the responsibilities on me
i can't fully enjoy my day
but i can say that
i enjoy my life here

A big thanks to my coursemates and friends, i love u all very much..

Rainy day...

Somehow, i like rainy day
it makes me feel calm

rainy day equal to sad day?
i don't think so

enjoy hearing the rain drops
fall on the roof

although sometimes it brings inconvenience
but i like it

When I...

When i wait for the word
u didn't say it

When i didn't wait for it anymore
u say it

what should i respond?

Stress

I have gone through a week
with much stress
that
i can't believe it

i need to manage it
but i'm still finding the right way

stress make me mad
stress make me cry
stress make me feel that life is so
-meaningless-

Forced

when you are forced to do something you don't like
it feel bad
it is torturing
and yet it wont bring satisfactions

so why not try to like it?
yes, i should like it
slowly...

Letting go...

Letting go is one of the hardest lessons in life.

In life, there's many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.

It's easy to form an attachment to people and things. When you've formed an attachment to people and things, it can be a very painful experience and feeling when you realized that it's time to let go. Even the mere thought of not having that person or thing in your life just squeezes your heart in pain.

However, there are times where you or that person has changed to the extent that it's necessary to let go of the relationship or friendship, so that each of you can fulfill your life path.

Letting go of your past and memories are also extremely hard. Even though old memories can be tormenting, yet you might hold on to the past and refuse to move forward. However, by refusing to let go of the painful past, it'll serve as a roadblock to love.

Letting go of your old self and the process of letting the new you emerge can be one of the scariest experiences in your life. But by leaving behind your old self and taking a leap of faith into the unknown, it might just reveal what you are truly capable of becoming.