regret? no...

Suddenly...i feel regret, of my choice. Why? Should i regret? no...coz..i dont have other way to go..or...maybe...haha...

Why? Why i always feel like this? My choice is not good enough? I think about it over and over again. I shouldn't feel like this. I enjoy my life now...but why am i still feeling regret? Maybe, my life is not as good as i think...

Because of my choice..I have been to where i never been before..which i think i would have never been there if i have chosen another path...which were great trips for me! Then, should i regret? Do i have any reason to regret? Blamming my dad for sending me here? Or..

since...

Holiday is coming. But, i m not going home. I m forced to go to kl for merdeka.I didnt write a long post for quite a long time already..

My assignments are almost done..so i have the time to write something here. Many things happened. I could hardly say how i feel now. I feel kinda tired..and a little bit down.

Somehow, i miss my friends. I wanted to meet them. But i could hardly do that. Not to say that i m not happy with my friends here. They are good friends and i am glad to know them. Just that, i miss my old friends. I remembered the time we spent togather. It was..undescriable.

How about my family? I fall sick last week. And..i went to see the doctor. That was the first time i visit the doctor without the company of my family. I m alone. My parents called me, especially my mom. She wanted to come here and bring me to see the doctor but i rejected. Just dont want her to worry about me. She called me many many times. And..i cried..silently in the clinic. Mom, i love you. I feel it. Mom, do u know why i dont like to go home? I guess u dont know about that. I know that you are not 'controlling' me..but u just worry about me..I hope that u can put more trust on me..

What happened to me? I m like talking nonsense. I have mixed feeling. i found that my life is a bit different now. But, i cant really point out what is the different. Maybe, is only my thinking. Assignments..presentations seem to be parts of my life. Sometimes, i m quite tired of it. What should i do next?

Disappointed..

i'm disappointed..

for what you have done..
all just out of my expectations..

i don't want to lose a friend..
just i don't know what else i can do..

解决

分清界线·烦恼再见

无言

失望，是因为期望太高……
觉得自己太天真了……
竟然把人家不在乎的事当真……

我太傻了，
我想我因该知道
接下来的路该怎么走……

彷徨·无助……

是谁？突然走进了我的世界……
是谁？让我迟疑了很久……

我……该怎么面对？
我……是否做错了？
我……太残忍了？

一个月过去了，
一直都在彷徨……
我感觉很无助……
我好像……浪费了很多时间……

下一步……我该怎么走，才能走得无悔？