What?

Sometimes...it is really confused...
Sometime...it hurts...
Sometimes...it is tiring...
Sometimes...i don't really care about it...

Am i a great friend?
Am i satisfied all my friends?
Am i very selfish?
Am i wrong?

What is the best way?
Who do you think you are?
What is your problem?
What do you want from me?

I am shocked...
I am speechless...
I don't know how to move on...
I don't really want to involve in it...

Can i left halfway?
Can i just keep quiet?
Can i pretend that nothing happened?
Can i scold you?

You think you are right in everything?
You think i am on your side?
You know how i feel?
You want me to tell you the truth?

No...i will keep it as my secret...
No...i won't share with anyone...
No...i want you to wake up...
No...i am not like what you think...

So...let the time to prove it...

L-O-V-E

something to share from email.....

To my friends who are single...
love is like a butterfly...
the more u chase it, the more it eludes u...
but if u just let it fly, it will come to u when u least expect it...
love can make u happy but often it hurts...
but love is only special when u give it to someone who is really worth it...
take ur time n choose the best...

To my friends who are not so single...
love isn't about becoming somebody else's perfect person...
it is about finding someone who helps u become the best person u can be...

To my friends who are engaged...
the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent togather...
but is how good u r for each other...

To my friends who are married...
love is not about "it is ur fault", but "i am sorry"
not "where r u", but "i'm right here for u"...
not "how could u", but "i understand"...
not "i wish u were", but "i m thankful u r"...

To my friends who are heartbroken...
heartbreaks last as long as u want...
and cut as deep as u allow them to go...
the challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks...
but to learn from them...

To my friends who are naive...
be consistent but not too persistent...
share n never b unfair...
understand n try not to demand...

To my friends who are possesive...
it breaks ur heart to see the one u love....happy with someone else...
but it is more painful to know that the one u love...is unhappy with u...

To my friends who are afraid of confess...
love hurts when u break up with someone...
it hurts even more when someone breaks up with u...
but, love hurts the most...
is when the person u love has no idea how u feel about him/her...

To my friends who are still holding on...
a sad thing about life is when u meet someone...
n fall in love...
only find out the end that it was never meant to be...
n that u have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it...

Who else but a friend is there...

to believe in you,

to share your joys ,

to dry your tears ,

to give you hope ,

to comfort your hurts ,

to listen ,

to laugh with you ,

to show you a better way ,

to tell you the truth ,

to encourage you .

Who else can do that for you ?

That's what friends are for .

曖昧不是愛情 ……

你们认识很久,你满心欢喜，你开始心怀期待,就连做梦都会笑出来,可是他就是什么也不说,你对自己说等等再等等,直到有一天你看到他身边有了另一个身影,你震惊"不是...这是....我是.....？"

在朋友眼里你们很登对,每次聚会他做你的护花使者责无旁贷,你也发现自己对他有了些些的依赖,朋友关于你们之间无伤大雅的玩笑让你觉得很甜蜜。就在你以为一切都将水到渠成的时候睛 天霹雳,他说他从没对你有过这种想法他说这是你的误会。

你呆住了"误会？.....竟...竟然是...误会.....？"

伤心吗?难过吗?痛苦吗?只是,只是谁让你把暧昧当爱情呢？

这是个暧昧横行的年代,感情出现的第三个种类,比友情深比爱情浅，游走于二者的边缘这就是暧昧,是什么时候开始本应是明明朗朗的爱情成了一场麓战,谁先动心谁就满盘皆输万劫不复。是谁把简单复杂化……

其实说穿了
暧昧,是可以推脱责任的游戏,没有承诺就无需负责;

暧昧,是勇敢者的游戏,无畏的人才能在角逐中进退自如;

如果你没有铁石铸就的心肠做软胃甲,那么你就别拿暧昧当爱情...

暧昧是，比好朋友再亲一点，但比情人远一点。

暧昧是, 有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。

暧昧是, 明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。

暧昧是, 有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。

暧昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你。

暧昧是，别人问你们是否恋爱中，你张口结舌。

暧昧是，常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后，你既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。

暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么？我是不是自作多情？

暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。

暧昧是，一扇门，你可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门――永远不是终点站。

但，曖昧始终不是爱情。两个人再如何得好也不要改变既定的和谐，也别幻想着角色的转换，否则只有痛苦和失望。如果未曾蒙面的话，就更不该冒这个险了！就把 它当作一种友谊，好好的放在保温箱里，给它取个动人的名字叫曖昧。爱昧是你看到这篇文章，会想到的那个人！我们曖昧，我们却不属于对方……有些失去是注定 的，有些缘分是永远不会有结果的。确认世间有这么一种情愫，介于友情和爱情之间，它是真正的不能说，一说就错所以我们都选择了没有开始的永不结。

可惜……

是……这是我的决定……我没有后悔过……但我又觉得可惜……为何会这样？

朋友纷纷地告诉我中六检定考试要到了……全部都很压力……我告诉他们……我已经没有这个机会考了……突然……他们又告诉我……我的名字依然有在……毕竟已经报考了嘛……

我想……考试那天……我的位子……应该是空着的吧……我有一种……一种奇妙的感觉……也许……我只能用可惜来形容这个感觉……

我有一股冲动想回去考试……但……之后又想了想……我还是不回去吧……因为……我将会气死校长……因为把全校成绩拉低……哈哈……

但我敢肯定……这条路是我选的……我没后悔……

Stress...stress...stress!!

What am i doing now? I dunno...

What i know is...exam is coming very very soon!! Argh....

I m going mad...

过去了……

终于……都过去了……感觉好轻松……好开心……

下次请你别这样了……我真的好担心……担心你真的离开了……

我会永远爱你……

害怕……

昨天，我接了一通妹妹打来的电话……

我感到好害怕……我好害怕会失去他……到底它发生了什么事？怎么突然会有这样的反应……

我不希望他在我生命中就这样走了……我好想见他……可是我现在身不由己……我只能默默的哭泣……

Life...

Sometimes…I am really happy and enjoy my life…but sometimes…I feel lonely although my friends are around me…

I feel like my life…still lack of something…but I don’t know what is that…

Recently…many things happened…I entered a competition…that…can train my confident…but…I still have not enough confident in myself…why?

Why I can’t be like them? No need to worry about this and that…and feel scared…why am I worry so much?

After the competition…I also don’t know who I am anymore…I feel that that is not me…and…I am different…still…if I still in the old version of me…I couldn’t survive I think…

This doesn’t mean that I am doing a drama…just…being a trainee…I need to be have more confident in myself…

I am happy that I have a great roommate…if compared to some friends…I don’t know whether I am a good roommate…but…she is really a good roommate…my friends here…also very nice…just maybe we know each other only for about a few months…still can’t be like ‘old’ friends…

I hope one day…they will be my ‘old’ friends…

Feeling...weird...

After finish my assignments and presentations...i have a weird feeling...

Exam is coming...very soon...haha...now i think is the time i manage my time and start study...

From where am i going to start my study? Opss...i almost forget how to study...coz...honestly...i enjoy too much...

Is it a very bad thing? Ohno...thats why i said...i have changed...

It comes slowly...

I enjoy too much since middle of July....

Now...the stress...comes slowly...slowly....so scary...

Exam is coming soon...i don't even read a word yet...because...assignments...

I hope that i can finish my assignments smoothly n start study!!

Ahhhh......

Tired...

Yes...i m so tired...assignments? not really...busy playing? maybe....

I can't sleep early...just that...i feel not worth to do so...i found that myself has changed...better? or worsen? ermm...50-50...

I wanted to cry...but...i can't...can someone tell me how to continue my life?

My life?

Finally...i am here again...i don't know why i am here again...just...maybe...some reasons for me to be here...again...

I left my blog for almost one year...since...december'07...Wow...soooo long...many things in my life had changed...at first...i can't really accept it...now...i can say...i love my life...even though i dislike my life...i also have to accept it...and also try to love it...and...i make it...

Although i miss my so called 'old' friends...but still...i get to know many many new friends...the feeling is...weird...is hard to describe...i can't imagine how much i miss my friends...today...tomorrow...next year...i hope that my friends will be with me forever...it sounds bad...but...honestly...this is how i feel...i know that this is impossible...one day...my friends will left me...one by one...n they are searching for their new friends...and new life...just like i left my friends months ago...i don't know how they feel...i feel guilty for doing so...but...what else can i do?

I know i go for the sake of my future...3 months ago...i left them...some of them wish me luck...but some...don't really want me to go...because they feel that is not worth...to me...i have no choice...sorry...my dear friend...i have make my choice...how bout u?

WHY??

为什么我长得越大……烦恼就越多……

为什么人总是有那么多的意见？

为什么人人都要我们去配合他们？

为什么你总是认为自己永远是对的？

为什么你就不能体谅别人？

为什么我要因为你而改变大局？

为什么你就不能站在我的立场想想吗？

我快要崩溃了……

但我知道我不能这样……

我一定要撑下去……

我好希望你在我生活中……永远消失……

Do u believe in miracle?

YES? or NO?

My answer is...YES...

对不起……谢谢你……

谢谢你的爱
谢谢你的耐心
谢谢你所带给我的欢乐
谢谢你一直以来的陪伴
谢谢你一直以来的的付出
谢谢你点亮了我的生命
谢谢你在我生命中停留了一段日子
谢谢你让我体会到别人得不到的经验
谢谢你所带给我的一切……一切……

对不起……我错了……
我误会你了……
不管我怎么骂你……
对你发脾气……
你也不反抗……
你也不回手……
你更不把他放在心上……

现在……我知道了……
我很心疼……
我很伤心……
对不起……
我之前应该多关心你……
而不是骂你，更不应该打你……
我不应该把你带回来……
对不起，我错了……
我好想让你听到我的道歉……
但我知道一切都一太迟了……太迟了……

我已做了这么一个决定……
这对你可说是最好的办法……
我非常非常的舍不得你……
我好希望你能留在我身边……
像以前那样…
可是我不想让你再辛苦下去……
我就做了这么一个决定……
我很心疼……

我真的……很舍不得你……
我会永远……永远……的祝福你……

Oh my God...

I know she is a good friend sometimes…
I know she think that I have changed…
I know she know that some people hate her…
I know she dislike somebody very much…
I know she is so sensitive…

I dunno how to tolerate with her…
I dunno what to do with her…
I dunno what’s wrong with her…
I dunno what will happen next to her…

I wanna shout at her in front of everyone …
I wanna slap her…
I wanna walk out of her life…

I don’t care what she think of me…
I don’t care how she describe me…
I don’t care if everybody hate her…
I don’t care if she still wanna be friend with me…

I am fed up with her…
I am not who I am anymore…

Tagged...

Tagged by Iwan loooooooong time ago....

5 things found in my bag
- purse
- handphone
- tissue
- comb
- medicine(like panadol…)

5 things found in your wallet
- money
- identity card
- driving license
- cards (like popular n union card, optical centre + some business cards…)
- photos (mine + my family)

5 favourite things in your room
- my collection (like stamps…)
- my bed
- my letters
- souvenirs
- gifts from my friends

5 things you’ve always wanted to do
- successfully bake a fruit cake
- get a complete set of baking stuff
- get a complete set of sushi making stuff
- buy a laptop
- change my handphone

5 things you’re currently into
- start my new life in form 6
- card making
- going mad with my looong hair
- my busy life – tuition…
- make new friends(from other schools)

5 person that you tagged
- nobody la...

Tagged again n again...^^

I was tagged by "nice" Nard Ge Ge...


INSTRUCTION : Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone.Then, stab 3 people to do the same test..

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I'm totally smart.
11) I've broken someone's bones.
12) I'm paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I'm always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don't hate anyone.
35) I'm a pretty good dancer.
36) I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone..
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I've rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I've called the cops on a friend before.
46) I'm not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I'm obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal dream.
69) I'm proficient in an musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can't live without black eyeliner.
79) I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I've written in.
86) I can't stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I'm an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.


I wanna tag Min Jia and Wei Hern only...

50-50

I am confused…

The teacher and the president of Buddha Society year 06/07 want me to be the president of year 07/08…what can I do? Accept? Refuse?

Buddha Society is not the same as other society…because…we have ‘shi fu’ (师父)…we can’t simply plan the activities that we want but we have to plan something according to Buddha taught…this is the main problem…for example…if I am the president of English Society…I can plan any activities that I want (I can plan n do what I want because I am the president)…but if I am the president of Buddha Society(I have to follow their plan…don’t want to follow also can…but…to me is like ‘derhaka’…actually i dunno how to reject someone's ideas...expecially shi fu's n teacher's ideas..)…

I am under stress…I have no confident actually…but I will try my best…