WHY??

为什么我长得越大……烦恼就越多……

为什么人总是有那么多的意见？

为什么人人都要我们去配合他们？

为什么你总是认为自己永远是对的？

为什么你就不能体谅别人？

为什么我要因为你而改变大局？

为什么你就不能站在我的立场想想吗？

我快要崩溃了……

但我知道我不能这样……

我一定要撑下去……

我好希望你在我生活中……永远消失……

Do u believe in miracle?

YES? or NO?

My answer is...YES...

对不起……谢谢你……

谢谢你的爱
谢谢你的耐心
谢谢你所带给我的欢乐
谢谢你一直以来的陪伴
谢谢你一直以来的的付出
谢谢你点亮了我的生命
谢谢你在我生命中停留了一段日子
谢谢你让我体会到别人得不到的经验
谢谢你所带给我的一切……一切……

对不起……我错了……
我误会你了……
不管我怎么骂你……
对你发脾气……
你也不反抗……
你也不回手……
你更不把他放在心上……

现在……我知道了……
我很心疼……
我很伤心……
对不起……
我之前应该多关心你……
而不是骂你，更不应该打你……
我不应该把你带回来……
对不起，我错了……
我好想让你听到我的道歉……
但我知道一切都一太迟了……太迟了……

我已做了这么一个决定……
这对你可说是最好的办法……
我非常非常的舍不得你……
我好希望你能留在我身边……
像以前那样…
可是我不想让你再辛苦下去……
我就做了这么一个决定……
我很心疼……

我真的……很舍不得你……
我会永远……永远……的祝福你……

Oh my God...

I know she is a good friend sometimes…
I know she think that I have changed…
I know she know that some people hate her…
I know she dislike somebody very much…
I know she is so sensitive…

I dunno how to tolerate with her…
I dunno what to do with her…
I dunno what’s wrong with her…
I dunno what will happen next to her…

I wanna shout at her in front of everyone …
I wanna slap her…
I wanna walk out of her life…

I don’t care what she think of me…
I don’t care how she describe me…
I don’t care if everybody hate her…
I don’t care if she still wanna be friend with me…

I am fed up with her…
I am not who I am anymore…

Tagged...

Tagged by Iwan loooooooong time ago....

5 things found in my bag
- purse
- handphone
- tissue
- comb
- medicine(like panadol…)

5 things found in your wallet
- money
- identity card
- driving license
- cards (like popular n union card, optical centre + some business cards…)
- photos (mine + my family)

5 favourite things in your room
- my collection (like stamps…)
- my bed
- my letters
- souvenirs
- gifts from my friends

5 things you’ve always wanted to do
- successfully bake a fruit cake
- get a complete set of baking stuff
- get a complete set of sushi making stuff
- buy a laptop
- change my handphone

5 things you’re currently into
- start my new life in form 6
- card making
- going mad with my looong hair
- my busy life – tuition…
- make new friends(from other schools)

5 person that you tagged
- nobody la...

Tagged again n again...^^

I was tagged by "nice" Nard Ge Ge...


INSTRUCTION : Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone.Then, stab 3 people to do the same test..

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse.
10) I'm totally smart.
11) I've broken someone's bones.
12) I'm paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I'm always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don't hate anyone.
35) I'm a pretty good dancer.
36) I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone..
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I've rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I've called the cops on a friend before.
46) I'm not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I'm obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal dream.
69) I'm proficient in an musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state.
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can't live without black eyeliner.
79) I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I've written in.
86) I can't stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I'm an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.


I wanna tag Min Jia and Wei Hern only...

50-50

I am confused…

The teacher and the president of Buddha Society year 06/07 want me to be the president of year 07/08…what can I do? Accept? Refuse?

Buddha Society is not the same as other society…because…we have ‘shi fu’ (师父)…we can’t simply plan the activities that we want but we have to plan something according to Buddha taught…this is the main problem…for example…if I am the president of English Society…I can plan any activities that I want (I can plan n do what I want because I am the president)…but if I am the president of Buddha Society(I have to follow their plan…don’t want to follow also can…but…to me is like ‘derhaka’…actually i dunno how to reject someone's ideas...expecially shi fu's n teacher's ideas..)…

I am under stress…I have no confident actually…but I will try my best…

Hmm...

就在刚才……我受到了他（已和我相处了两年的朋友）的信息……他告诉我……他得matrikulasi了……明天就要去了……我当时的心情就是非常非常得难受……我的心好痛……好像失去某种东西的感觉……很无助……

我想了整个下午……心情很差……我为了不让父母知道我的心情……就一个人躲在房间里……借口是看故事书……就在那个时候……我想了好多好多东西……哭也哭过了……我也已接受了这个现实……“人总是要接受现实的……虽然很痛……但一下子就会过去了……”这句是我从一部电视剧的对白学到的……觉得他讲得也有道理……一直都记在心里……

也在这个时候……我发现我一直都依赖着他……想了整个下午……我也相通了……我也很清楚我下一步要怎么走下去……

Orientation Day...

Orientation Day – great!

I reached school at about 7am…I looked around…none of them wearing t-shirt(means they are not form 6 students)…I seemed like an ‘alien’ walking around the school seeking for another ‘alien’..haha…only at about 7.15am I saw another ‘alien’…huhh…am I too early?

After that was ice breaking. At first, there were only 6 people(including me) in my group…kesian…then 3 people come and join my group…group’s name is ‘wu xian’(unlimited)…yen yen and xiang wei same group with me…

There was a game that we have to search something (symbol, drawing or words) that can be found in our school compound…only that I know that there are many things that I dunno or didn’t even realize although I study in this school for 5 years!! Aiks..aiks…

Then was station game where we need cooperation…one of the game that remain ‘geli’ in my mind is we have to eat something look and taste geli (mixture of banana, milo and water)..imagine that…we have to use the straw to suck the ‘things’…actually the taste is not that bad…but the colour is sooo geli…yuck…

What a great experience!!

Second day in school...

I am in L6S2…

There is only 26 students in my class…yeah…I like this…I hope the school won’t combine L6S1 n S2…

My class teacher is…is…is…Mr. …..(5A1’06 class teacher!!) omg!!

Mr. Teoh : Your class teacher is Mr….

L6S2 students : Harrrrrrrrrrr…..!!

Let me introduce to u my classmates…

Emm…shy chyi, khuan ning, lip pang, kok jie, jane ying, xin tian, nicholas, bai qin, cheng you, boon khai, hooi ann, cindy, wan li, sue lyn, kar suan, kooi shen, kang ding, wei yuan, shi mei…the rest…I m not very sure, some of then are from other schools…

Tomorrow is orientation day!! Yeah!!

Tagged again...=)

When I saw the word ‘tagged’ in lene’s blog…then I know…I wanna cekek lene…nyeknyeknyek…

*Actually I wanna post this earlier..but…when I type till the word ‘purse’…suddenly...
'toc'…black out…so sui…haiz…

5 things found in my bag
- purse
- handphone
- tissue
- comb
- medicine(like panadol…)

5 things found in your wallet
- money
- identity card
- driving license
- cards (like popular n union card, optical centre + some business cards…)
- photos (mine + my family)

5 favourite things in your room
- my collection (like stamps…)
- my bed
- my letters
- souvenirs
- gifts from my friends

5 things you’ve always wanted to do
- successfully bake a fruit cake
- get a complete set of baking stuff
- get a complete set of sushi making stuff
- buy a laptop
- change my handphone

5 things you’re currently into
- start my new life in form 6
- card making
- going mad with my looong hair
- my busy life – tuition…
- make new friends(from other schools)

5 person that you tagged
- nobody la...

lene...i m waiting...

My brand new life...

My new life had just started…

I wake up at 6am in the morning…the first thing…bath! Then bla bla…including tie my hair (hehe..susahnye..the first time I tie my hair b4 going to school mer..=.=) I thought I can done everything in 30 minutes…but…aiya…the time is already 6.30am n I still haven’t come my hair, wear my shoes, tie n …I have to go out early because my dad is the driver…if not… dad might be late to school (kesian…=.=)…I panicked…no choice liao ar…take my rubber band, ribbon as well as comb(most important…) n also my shoes…reach school…my first destination - school toilet!! Haha…

At about 7am…done!! Go to the front of my school hall…to see whether chyi was already there…saw xinyi n zi yang(chua)…about 5 minutes later…saw chyi with her untied hair…

‘ping! Give me the rubber band!! No time liao…quick…go to the toilet(toilet again…=.=)!’

7.30am…we all gathered in school hall…there are students from keat hwa II and Sharifah Roziah…I choose biology class…I will die if continue study physic…hehe…

Really loooong briefing….damn boring…but quite useful…hehe…

Thats all…

U all(my x classmate) wanna know who I saw today?

*wan yen, woan chin, wan teng, xiang wei, shu jou, khuan ning, chu siang, kok jie, ching ying, xiao wei, jia xin, wan li, jane ying, elisabeth, xinyi, zhi sheng, lip pang, ying ying, xin tian, hooi ann, hooi ling, jin xuan, zi hong…I think is enough ady la hor…=)

To be continue…

i m a fortune teller..haha...

农历二十三日生
此日生人，心境常换，作事不定，多变多变，易与争斗勤励事业，矫正缺点，衣禄有馀，中年平平未运福到，荣华富贵，平安之命

28日出生的我。。
韧性很强，拥有战胜困难的力量。这天出生的女性，常给人一种妖艳的印象。

你富有幻想力，好玩，喜欢寻求刺激，表达能力很强。你魅力过人，身边不会缺少朋友和裙下之臣，有时会因兴奋过度而态度嚣张，喜好得失通常在朋友间都会以玩笑的态度打圆场。你妒忌心颇重，但通常是在男友的故意挑剔下表现出来，你喜欢运动型和富有艺术感的男性。

最匹配的星座：白羊座，狮子座，射手座

最佳男伴生日：3，12，21，30。

Tagged...

Actually…been tagged is fun…at least…I have something to post…hehe…

1.Honestly what color is your shirt?
-- Red + white… is my pyjamas la..

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
-- Today’s incident…actually I wanna go shopping…but I din go…mixed feeling…

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
-- Really dumb question…I m now sitting on a chair n typing..=)

4. Honestly, have you ever been in love?
-- Yes…

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
-- Yes…I fight with my dog…he is so naughty today…maybe praise him too much last night…

6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
-- Only if no other channel that attract me…or maybe when my mood is good…

7. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- Zhi sheng…private conversation…haha..

8. Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
-- No…

9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
-- When my cat meowing non stop…he is full actually…just manja…

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
-- Yes…do u saw me biting my nails in front of u? coz I will only bites my nails when I m watching tv…

11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
-- No…

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
-- No…I feel a little bit sleepy…

13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t like?
-- Yes…I think lene and nard know who is that…

14. Honestly, do you love anyone?
-- Mum…dad...two younger sisters…my dog…my cat…my hamsters…my fish…

15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
-- Dunno wor…

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

*Anger Section*

1. What do you do when you’re mad?
Step 1: Yell! Arghhhhhh!!!

Step 2: Slap the table…or something ‘slapable’..

Step 3: Scream to the person who made me mad...OR…search for the thingS that the person like n hide it/them…I will take it/them out when my mood is ok…hehe…

2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?
-- Throw the thingS that the person like into the dustbin…

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
-- My younger sisters…

4. Do you swear when you are mad ?
-- I swear he/she vanished in my life…

5. When was the last time you really cried?
-- Last year…

6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
-- Yes…

7. What usually makes you cry?
-- Death & frustration...

8. Are you normally a happy person?
-- 80% happy…20% sad…

9. Does being with your friends make you happy?
-- Yes…but I always need some alone time too...

10. Have anyone to be tagged after you’ve been?
-- Mr. Chong Wei Hern…

Oh no! is that true?

For your whole life, you may lead a wandering life. Things of value and family property obtained only in a dream. It would be better for you to be adopted by a relative or be brought up by another family. There will be several occasions that you might migrate from one place to another. It seems that you did not do more good deeds in your past lives to create good karma or good wealth luck Why do you encounter so much hardships and untold sufferings?

HatE...

Something happened last night…[ don’t think bukan-bukan ya…=) ]

I chat with somebody ‘X’ through MSN…and…X told me to change my photo…the reason is…got someone X hate very much in that particular photo…so…I changed…but…

So…now what I wanna say is…that is my profile..I like to put what photo is my business…not yours! What is the matter with the photo? You hate someone in that particular photo?! So what? He/she is my friend! Why can’t I put that photo? You hate somebody doesn’t mean that I hate he/she too! You tell me you don’t wanna think of the past…nevermind…but don’t involve me! You want or don’t want to think is your business, not mine! I have my freedom to put whatever I want!

Actually, if we hate someone…we will never forget he/she ‘A’ because we still hate A. A will always in your mind…you tell yourself to forget A…but I don’t think you can do it(if you still hate A)…you will feel uneasy when anyone talk about A…if you still hate A…A will in your mind for the rest of your life…because you know you hate A! right? So, don’t take it too hard…you will never forget A if the word ‘hate’ is still in your heart…the more you hate, the more you suffer…and maybe your doings will caused your friend(like me) feel uncomfortable…

*what do u think?
*sorry if I hurt somebody here…this is how I feel…because…I also have someone I hate...

The ReaLiTy...

双鱼座的我…有事也烦…没事也烦...真是难以了解…hor?

我现在烦的呢…也就是搞不懂我应该选理科还是文科…有人说…文科的工作机会比较多..因为文科包括商科…在这个社会里…即使是你要当医生(也就是选择理科)…也和商科有关…不是吗?

但…如果我真的要读文科…而我在中四和中五都是读理科的…突然转去文科…会不会太冒险了呢?我也已问过我爸…他说…既然你目前读着理科…为何要换呢?他还社会东西很难讲的…有时需要好多就读文科的学生…有时候又时机转变…需要就读理科的学生…这也要靠你的运气咯!

我想了又想…难道真的要靠运气吗?难道不能靠我的实力吗?但是假如我再好…也会有人比我更好…就如强中自有强中手…到底怎么样的学生才真正达到社会的要求呢?

又有人说…你有兴趣什么科…就读什么科啦…几乎90%的朋友都这么说…但…兴趣也是有限的...怎么说呢?就好像我对设计有兴趣…但…我又能力读吗?设计这一科的学费…远远的超越了其他的科系…我负担得起吗?而且你觉得政府学院会推荐你就读有关设计的科目吗?对我而言…兴趣不是一切的…不是吗?

Ya...thats me...

Pisces Positive Traits

Imaginative and sensitive
Compassionate and kind
Selfless and unworldly
Intuitive and sympathetic

Pisces negative Traits

Escapist and idealistic
Secretive and vague
Weak-willed and easily led

The Astrological birth sign of Pisces (February 19 - March 20) is usually associated with being extremely creative, sensetive, and artistic, as well as a healthy fascination with the metaphysical and spiritual.

Pisces are the most intuitive and spiritually developed of the zodiac birth signs.Aptly called "old souls", Pisces thirst for spiritual knowledge and personal growth. They are the twelfth, and last, of the Zodiac signs, and as such, tend to have a more finely tuned intuition, sixth sense or extrasensory ability to perceive others feelings.

The duality of the Pisces personality is best described as a constant ebb and flow, back and forth, straddling the physical, material world and the ethereal, divine realm where Pisces vivid imagination, powerful intuition and creative daydreaming feel like home.

Pisces are creators. Pisces are common as inventors, writers, musicians, painters, and dancers. Pisces make great friends and mates. Pisces are extremely loyal and caring. Pisces often possess uncanny intuitive or psychic abilities.

A 'good' deed...haha...

Ringring……ringring……(I m bathing actually…)

I thought is my mum or dad is calling me…or something emergency…coz my phone seldom ring in the morning…so I rushed out from my bathroom…pick up the phone……

Me: Hello…

X University: Hello…I m calling from X University [*alamak]…can I speak to miss XX

(my name) please? [ohno! I hate this…I already received many calls from

many private collages n universities…y? coz they want SOMETHING ma…]

Me: Oh…she is not in…(+. +’’) [ water start trickling down on the phone…yuck…*rub the phone

with my towel…]

X University: ……

Me: Har??

X University: Who is speaking? [=.=”]

Me: Her mum…… [*smile…I thought she will say: “ok…good luck…thanks n bye…” but…]

X University: Is she interested in……bla…bla…[*ohno…]

Me: Em…I don’t think so…she is moving to form 6…[ngek…ngek…]

X University: Oh…ok…thank you….bye…

Me: Bye…

*am I wrong? What do u think of me after u read this…

Where do we come from?? i'm confused...

Where did humans come from? How did they come about? In investigating this question, we might consider how chickens came about. Which came first, the chicken or the egg? If you don't have a chicken, then there's no way you can have an egg, and if you don't have an egg, how can a chicken hatch?Some say that people evolved from monkeys. But what do the monkeys evolve from? If people evolved from monkeys, then why are there no people evolving from monkeys right now? This is really strange…

As far as people are concerned, were there women first, or were there men first? If you claim that the men came first, how do you explain that men are born from women? And, without women, how can there be any men? If you claim that the women were first to appear, how can you explain that both men and women are required to produce more people? Without a man, how can another woman be conceived?

*what do u think?

暧昧...委屈...哭泣...

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情 还得不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多 是我还是你
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

DeLiciOuS....

INGREDIENTS

* 1 cup confectioners' sugar
* 3 cups all-purpose flour
* 1 cup butter
* 1 egg, beaten
* 1 dash vanilla extract
*
* 2/3 cup white sugar
* 1 1/2 cups water
* 9 eggs, beaten
* 1 dash vanilla extract
* 1 cup canned evaporated milk

DIRECTIONS

1. In a medium bowl, mix together the confectioners' sugar and flour. Mix in butter with a fork until it is in small crumbs. Stir in the egg and vanilla until the mixture forms a dough. The texture should be slightly moist. Add more butter if it is too dry, or more flour, if the dough seems greasy. Shape dough into 1 1/2 inch balls, and press the balls into tart molds so that it covers the bottom, and goes up higher than the sides. Use 2 fingers to shape the edge into an A shape.
2. Preheat the oven to 450 degrees F (230 degrees C). Combine the white sugar and water in a medium saucepan, and bring to a boil. Cook until the sugar is dissolved, remove from heat and cool to room temperature. Strain the eggs through a sieve, and whisk into the sugar mixture. Stir in the evaporated milk and vanilla. Strain the filling through a sieve, and fill the tart shells.
3. Bake for 15 to 20 minutes in the preheated oven, until golden brown, and the filling is puffed up a little bit.

the BIGGEST problem

I m now wondering what course i wana take after spm..

1) i like the most-design (but i scared i cant find a job aft i graduate...n compare to the other ppl..i scared my design is bad..i wana b a famous designer..but i know is hard in m'sia...n that time when i graduate..ppl who study medic...engeenier ad hav a job...but i m still din success...= i hav no confident..)

2) mass com (the reason is same as (1))

3) medic/pharmacy(of course i want 2 b a famous doctor..but i dun reli like it coz is hard....hav to memorise a lot...doctor is also my parents' choice)

4) teacher (of course i also i wana b a famous teacher like mr. goh...a math tam teacher...i scared i cant do it..but most of my friends(not u all who read my posts of course)...when i said i wana b a teacher...they will say:"teacher ar...okla"..they let me feel like teacher is a low standrad ppl...)

can anyone here tell me what to do?

friends...

有时候看到交许多朋友的朋友。。不知为什么。。心里有点妒嫉。。为何他们的朋友那么多？而我。。他们的人缘有那么的好吗？我不知道。。还是他们比我更会珍惜身边的人？我不知道。。也许我是一种‘慢热’型的人。。看见他的朋友那么多。。突然发现自己越来越寂寞。。别人忙着‘约会’。。而我却留在家里。。一些我身边的朋友。。都不是我蛮好的朋友。。又有一些朋友。。很难让我信任。。总觉得他在我后面说些不该说的话。。但事实上有还是没有。。我不清楚。。

在他身边。。我总有一种妒忌心。。我有那么讨厌他吗？我不知道。。讨厌总比妒嫉多。。我只知道他有时真的令我觉得讨厌。。但有时候和他一起却很合得来。。但我相信讨厌的感觉总比合得来的时候多。。所以就在他面前做出一些让他讨厌和妒嫉的事。。就因为这样。。一些朋友就很奇怪的问我为何这样对待他。。在他们脑海里。。我是‘坏人’。。他。。才是‘好人’。。到底谁是好人。。谁是坏人。。我并不在乎。。我只是。。。以牙还牙。。

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